I was so happy to be representing Glen at the Oscars yesterday. Tim McGraw’s beautiful rendition of “I’m Not Gonna Miss You” brought an intimate and emotional hush to the theater. It was a poignant moment for everyone.
Right before the performance, The Academy did an In Memoriam tribute to all those who had passed away in the last year, including: Mickey Rooney, James Garner, Robin Williams, Lauren Bacall, and Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Jennifer Hudson performed, “I Can’t Let Go.” Meryl Streep said in her introduction to the segment: “We will miss them with the same sadness we miss an old friend.”
Her words reminded me of the loss our family has experienced in this battle with Alzheimer's.
Hearing Tim sing “I’m Not Gonna Miss You,” magnified the sadness tenfold. As the words filled the theater, it was almost eerie:
I’m still here but yet I’m gone.
Don’t play guitar or sing my songs
It never defined who I am
The man who loved you till the end.
This was a bittersweet moment for our family because Glen could not be there with us to sing it himself. Glen is forgetting the ones he loves, but he left us a message that says, “Don’t worry about me; I won’t be aware of the loss. What you don’t know can’t hurt you.”
If he had won, I know first and foremost, Glen would have wanted to thank God for giving him a wonderful life. Even now, in the later stages of Alzheimer’s, Glen still prays. He’ll bow his head and say; “Thank you Heavenly Father! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” He’ll look at me and say, “We are so blessed!” He has an awareness that his blessings come from God and he is grateful. What an example to us all. How many of us just take our lives for granted?
I’m so thankful that God brought us together.
After the ceremony, we went to a restaurant nearby where PCH Films was having an Oscar viewing party and an afterparty. It was wonderful to see all the familiar faces who put so much time and effort into the documentary and to share in our love of Glen.
Glen may not have missed us that night, but I know we all missed him. I can’t wait to get back to Nashville to sit with him and share all of these experiences with him!